Friends, Kawan, Amigos, Prietenii lui

      Thanks to Goggle Translate, I manage to grab four words which has the same meaning; FRIENDS. Friend is define as a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

      Friends are like stars, they come and go, but the best are the ones that come out and glow! - Unknown

      Few days before I went back for Christmas' holiday, I felt something weighing my heart. I don't feel right. I felt like something bad gonna happen (obviously nothing happened, I am still writing, alhamdulillah). So as the result, I became a bit depressed and paranoid and since I was heavily influenced by movies, I wrote a Goodbye Note titled Warkah Berlagu Pilu and save it as a draft in my Facebook account. At the time I wrote it, I cried heavily but silently since I was in the solat room. Later that night after Maghrib, the class and I went to Tanjung Lumpur for a sort of a goodbye-for-a-while-gathering-slash-dinner. Everyone had to pay a worthy RM15. No Complaint there.

      Ate till tummy turned a beautiful round shape. Then, of course, cam-whoring. Then, BYE-BYE everyone like that was the last meeting. Rode back to Sekilau in a van which packed like a sardine can. Yana had to sit on my lap to make space for others. (untung laa yana dapat duduk VIP seat hehe). Arrived at Sekilau and give words to Iffah and Ika which seems like my last and I choked up. Both of them said that it's gonna be okay and stop saying things like that but I can't and then came the waterfall. And out of no where, Iffah turn around and cried herself. I was moved and shocked at the same time. When the reality hits me, I laughed 'cos I feel so silly.  At the same time, I felt a strip of joy in front of me 'cos finally I found someone who can cry with me. 

A friend is someone who will be there when you are crying, a true friend is there crying with you. - Unknown

      So, the day of going home came. We packed, say goodbye to my roomates, and left some pretty beautiful words to them I must say. And went into the bus, get bus sick (refer to car sick) and almost gag myself. If so, then I'm so sorry Farhan, I won't see you again I'm sure. Few hours on the ride, I only spoke few words and very silent due to holding back my puke. Angah picked me up when I had arrived. Iffah, Ika,  Zira and also Carry (surprise, surprise) texted me asking me whether I have arrived safely or otherwise. I'm touched. Even with all the sweetness they shown and whatnot, I did not revive from my bus sick after few days afterwards. Even a short ride made me woozy but now alhamdulillah AAL IS WELL! ^^,

      Thanks friends for being there and care. Love you guys deeply.




p/s : this post are mainly about friends but if pasal my bus sick empower, i'm sorry. haha.


      After trying to post a code which gonna appear as a blue coloured word of shahadah on Facebook, my account was blocked. It also said that I can't post anything for the next 24 hours. Too bad. Thank God for twituer though.

p/s : twitter equals to twituer. it's a thing now.

Happy Note

      My blog now is full of unpleasant stories. Ugh, I hate it! Now, on a more of happy note, insyallah, on 16th of January (yep, it's my birthday :P), I'm gonna change my layout and the name of this blog. The current name/title is too long and not catchy at all. So, let's wait and see :) AND I promise this blog is gonna be more fun and exciting...I hope.


      Ignore the previous post please. I do need my friends. Thank you guys for making me forget Them and making my days brighter. I love you guys, seriously. :') I don't need to type out your name here. Your name is already in my heart and that is what matters most. Thanks for being here with me through thick and thick. I will always remember you guys.

      p/s : kalau Legoland dah bukak nanti kat JB. yang aku tahu, korang WAJIB datang okay!

My days are numbered

      These past few days have been hell. I cried my eyes out. Yeah, it was the only way I could feel live again. It. Was. The. Only. Way. When at time like this, I feel all alone in this big world. I admit that I have cool friends but sometimes they kinda sorta can't get through me, you know? BIG SIGH. I want to be alone. I WANT TO BE ALONE! :( I hate them...not my friends. The other them. I always hated them. When I am on my way to like them, there will always be a reason for me not to. I know it's harsh to not to but heck, experiences cannot be erased. Oh god, I am not making any sense here. Guys, please pray for me - lots. Ya Allah, I need so much strength now! :')