NADEENUTS

Grief is a funny thing. I was reciting the quran and suddenly remember a tender memory of papa coming home from the masjid while mama and I were both reciting quran in our own rooms, doors ajar. Papa stood in the hallway, a calm and happy smile plastered on his face, soaking it all up. While I too smiling just now thinking about this. Suddenly tears pooling in my eyes and my voice became croaky, trying to catch my breath. I continued reciting nevertheless. And then I hit verse 129, surah At-Taubah which read: But if they turn away, then say, ˹O Prophet,˺ “Allah is sufficient for me. There is no god ˹worthy of worship˺ except Him. In Him I put my trust. And He is the Lord of the Mighty Throne.” And my tears streamed down. I recited that verse 3 times and just let myself feel everything, the heaviness, the joy, the calmness that comes with it too. Allahumma firlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fu anhu 🤲🏻 I miss you pa. See you in Jannatul Firdaus.